Because one day, I might get hit by a bus.
Maybe it’s weird. Maybe it’s scary. Maybe it seems downright impossible to just be—to just let people know you want them, need them, feel like, in this very moment, you will die if you do not see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether its your feet on their thighs on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands.
But there is nothing more beautiful than being desperate.
And there is nothing more risky than pretending not to care.
We are young and we are human and we are beautiful and we are not as in control as we think we are. We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans.
We never know when the bus is coming.”
In other words, if you want to be consumed by feelings like sadness and anxiety about where you are in your life because you know that you have a reason for it and because you have been abused by a situation, then also know that these justifications will keep you from healing. Even if in reality you are a victim, this role is not helping you to be in a better place. It’s your choice to embrace the circumstances from that point of view—and you are entitled to do so. But if you want to be healthy, to be in joy, to find peace, and to move away from the situation you are in, then you can start by reframing your understanding. Take the lessons of that situation and embrace your responsibilities, leaving others to do the same.
And this process must be done in a loving way, not in judgment. You must remain objective and seek to see the situation accurately. Know that this option can lead you into awakening the power within. Know that this will help you to understand that you are the creator of your reality and you can change it at any time you choose. This position leads you into a role that is more empowering—a role that gives you control over your life. Know that what happened is in the past and that you can move forward, making things better from this point on.
This way, you become the driver of your life—not the passenger. You will regain responsibility to create what you desire, rather than placing it in the hands of another who may or may not fulfill your expectations. You will become the creator of your life and ignite the God that you are.”